trying hard

I am trying so hard to keep this going and maintain balance ....I can't seem to get started..

good intentions

I had all intentions of starting to write again last week but got distracted.Everything stopped when I started working for Burlington Coat factory,it's a downgrade but it is a job and I need to do something with my time and funding helps too.A little $ I get from this job and my situation change a little...Difficulties went away except........but it's ok,.... all these dark clouds will soon go away.I still need a ride,..hard to walk around hauling all these instruments.It is all temporary and things will be good.I just don't know how long I can tolerate running around Burlington Bldg....I don't know how long I can take the pain .It's hurting now I can barely walk when I get home and I have to ice and elevate for a period of time before it gets better....I know I will have a hard time during winter and should set my self time on how long I will work there.I know the minute snow come down and I have to walk.......I will loose interest on working;knowing I will be hurting,Hope at the same time I'll get this music project out in the open.OK...I know I will get the Fortitude I need to get this project going and start making more songs. By faith; my schedule was changed and the and management gave it to me before I even ask to get that day off....I believe.
everything will be alright,everything will be OK...(singing)

lost

I got my self in a rut somehow going to work and just coming and do house work ,....I am feeling I am the maid and boss at the same time,I know this has nnothing qith my instruoke b

another blog

I am just messing around ,I got myself a day off already after just 3 days of working .it's OK it's not for me but I have something to do for now and it will help me .I have been getting this family and friends that is saying hi,.... and wants to be friends with me and that makes me happy.I even have one that is a daughter of my childhood friend and 1st cousin from my home town which I have been wondering about for a long while and what have happen to him.I am somehow feeling sad and bad for what have happened and I like very much to assist them in any way I can.I have to get this big FAVOR that is coming to me NOW so I can help others. I am making this music blog about my INSTRUOKE and I am writing all kinds of different things and the topic is not even related .I am still in my Beatles INSTRUOKE .I am just just being lazy and not working on it .....

MY VLOG

The one that doesn't move ,ehh,Too lazy to do anything .I just want to make sure it is somehow moving so they know I am around and still kicking.Don't have much to say except GEE ! I am not doing anything about the project ,.I have one song pending and I can't even touch that .Any way I got myself a job ...lucky me I found one even though we have 15 mil unemployed. ,I should consider my self BLESSED,....since I can't move around because of the transport and I got my self a part time job that will help me pay the bills somehow and I thank the LORD for that ,I never doubted that he will be there for me.I have enough Beatles there to start the project .All I need is the break I am looking for,not worried ,...it will get .I understand now the principle that it is only temporary and The Most High is The GOD of The Perfect Timing............get it,get it ,get it...It's getting there.I will be fine ........

gadgets

Hey finally got the inexpensive gadgets I ordered form musicians friends ....I thought I try it seeing it's not that expensive ....Well ! ,...actually it is all I can afford,...for now.Igot my self an actual amp I can carry around with me and a guitar strap + strings for my COX electric guitar for the price of 2 phone calls to my daughter..It sounds somehow OK and it is portable which is OK for now till I get a better one.I have one song pending because of just plain laziness The song by B.Joel is still sitting there waiting for the guitar chords .....I don't know ,.. I don't feel like doing anything and don't have the desire to be out there .It's the start of the annual sail fest in New London .Maybe because I don't really have the ride to go anywhere .I have these brothers around me that only show when they really need something .They know the situation and .....Well It's OK .I am not really their responsibility so.........I guess I just have to wash my hands and stop helping others always so I don't get screw in the end .I am tired of being the one who's always lending a hand and when it comes for me to be the one who needs assistance ....they're nowhere around .I understand and it is how it is and just ignore.......Anyway I like my new toys and hoping I get my enthusiasm back...

hot,hot,hot...

It's July 6th and it is 100 degrees out there .What to do? I have a couple of things Ican do I can still do the painting or sit around and do my music. I can't really get around because of my transport situation.Don't want to really ask anymore .If they really do want to help they will ask if needed but it's not like that. I Thought,....just maybe they should offer because they know the situation.oh well....It will be OK,.....I will managed and find a way to do things. I just won't ask anymore.Help should be offered and not ask...I have not even seen my daughter for over a month now .Nobody's fault but mine.......I'll just work on my Beatles today.....