trying hard

I am trying so hard to keep this going and maintain balance ....I can't seem to get started..

good intentions

I had all intentions of starting to write again last week but got distracted.Everything stopped when I started working for Burlington Coat factory,it's a downgrade but it is a job and I need to do something with my time and funding helps too.A little $ I get from this job and my situation change a little...Difficulties went away except........but it's ok,.... all these dark clouds will soon go away.I still need a ride,..hard to walk around hauling all these instruments.It is all temporary and things will be good.I just don't know how long I can tolerate running around Burlington Bldg....I don't know how long I can take the pain .It's hurting now I can barely walk when I get home and I have to ice and elevate for a period of time before it gets better....I know I will have a hard time during winter and should set my self time on how long I will work there.I know the minute snow come down and I have to walk.......I will loose interest on working;knowing I will be hurting,Hope at the same time I'll get this music project out in the open.OK...I know I will get the Fortitude I need to get this project going and start making more songs. By faith; my schedule was changed and the and management gave it to me before I even ask to get that day off....I believe.
everything will be alright,everything will be OK...(singing)

lost

I got my self in a rut somehow going to work and just coming and do house work ,....I am feeling I am the maid and boss at the same time,I know this has nnothing qith my instruoke b

another blog

I am just messing around ,I got myself a day off already after just 3 days of working .it's OK it's not for me but I have something to do for now and it will help me .I have been getting this family and friends that is saying hi,.... and wants to be friends with me and that makes me happy.I even have one that is a daughter of my childhood friend and 1st cousin from my home town which I have been wondering about for a long while and what have happen to him.I am somehow feeling sad and bad for what have happened and I like very much to assist them in any way I can.I have to get this big FAVOR that is coming to me NOW so I can help others. I am making this music blog about my INSTRUOKE and I am writing all kinds of different things and the topic is not even related .I am still in my Beatles INSTRUOKE .I am just just being lazy and not working on it .....

MY VLOG

The one that doesn't move ,ehh,Too lazy to do anything .I just want to make sure it is somehow moving so they know I am around and still kicking.Don't have much to say except GEE ! I am not doing anything about the project ,.I have one song pending and I can't even touch that .Any way I got myself a job ...lucky me I found one even though we have 15 mil unemployed. ,I should consider my self BLESSED,....since I can't move around because of the transport and I got my self a part time job that will help me pay the bills somehow and I thank the LORD for that ,I never doubted that he will be there for me.I have enough Beatles there to start the project .All I need is the break I am looking for,not worried ,...it will get .I understand now the principle that it is only temporary and The Most High is The GOD of The Perfect Timing............get it,get it ,get it...It's getting there.I will be fine ........

gadgets

Hey finally got the inexpensive gadgets I ordered form musicians friends ....I thought I try it seeing it's not that expensive ....Well ! ,...actually it is all I can afford,...for now.Igot my self an actual amp I can carry around with me and a guitar strap + strings for my COX electric guitar for the price of 2 phone calls to my daughter..It sounds somehow OK and it is portable which is OK for now till I get a better one.I have one song pending because of just plain laziness The song by B.Joel is still sitting there waiting for the guitar chords .....I don't know ,.. I don't feel like doing anything and don't have the desire to be out there .It's the start of the annual sail fest in New London .Maybe because I don't really have the ride to go anywhere .I have these brothers around me that only show when they really need something .They know the situation and .....Well It's OK .I am not really their responsibility so.........I guess I just have to wash my hands and stop helping others always so I don't get screw in the end .I am tired of being the one who's always lending a hand and when it comes for me to be the one who needs assistance ....they're nowhere around .I understand and it is how it is and just ignore.......Anyway I like my new toys and hoping I get my enthusiasm back...

hot,hot,hot...

It's July 6th and it is 100 degrees out there .What to do? I have a couple of things Ican do I can still do the painting or sit around and do my music. I can't really get around because of my transport situation.Don't want to really ask anymore .If they really do want to help they will ask if needed but it's not like that. I Thought,....just maybe they should offer because they know the situation.oh well....It will be OK,.....I will managed and find a way to do things. I just won't ask anymore.Help should be offered and not ask...I have not even seen my daughter for over a month now .Nobody's fault but mine.......I'll just work on my Beatles today.....

trying hard

Yah,...that is all I am, complaining and not doing anything at all.I am trying; but Like I said I really don't know what is next I have to do .I still need my complete system to really get it going.I can start with what I have but then it will be incomplete to show around or.......maybe not,.... I just have to haul my things around all over town with no destination .This appointments I had has not even call .Not losing Faith ,it will come in due time .I know it I just have to practice more and make more songs.I was bored sometime last week and was able to do Billy Joel s Just the way you are ,....It's not finish yer but all I have to do is put the chords and it would be good.It is a song I like .I still need more Beatles songs to do.....

excuses

I have so many excuses that I am using .I am just being lazy and really don't know what I'm doing.The way I can go deeper in this situation of mine is If I buy a shovel and start digging and bury myself.My rope was cut; years ago and I have not done shit but talk about it.....I don't even have anymore straws.I really do need to get out and start showing ,.....my excuse now is transportation +I need to bring gadgets downtown or wherever I have to transport it too..I will stick with The Beatles songs and use youtube after.I should get back out there soon .I will wait to get the portable amp , I can get out now and use the acoustic though and I am still making an excuse..........Tamad kasi ang !@#$%^&*()_%^&* anyway,......... I'll get there......Beatles it is.....I am not even doing this posting of mine in this blog that I am supposed to be updating daily.I try.Need big time schedule adjustment and time management that I need to follow Faithfully.My gift is coming out and I need to be prepared financially and I am down to the ground.Every thing will be OK.......... K. I have all these cards that I can leave all over and to give away,...I'll just mark it with..... youtube "rrams2k"in the back I did not have youtube then when I printed the card...it is channel ....rrams2k .......next time.I have to do this even if I have to take the bus and make it there.It will get better when I have the new amp ....in the meantime ? DO IT !

nonan-anano-nanon -onana-anona

Have not been around to take care of things .I'm trying,.. have not have much time to go around because transportation factor.Kind'a hard to run around carrying guitar and my laptop and a keyboard with out a car.... I need good sound system to start ...will be much better to show the project around ?? I have not have a chance to do new song lately either...My bro Ernie shared with me the word's my father use in prayers in Latin ...........
my inheritance .
Hey !! this could be the ticket I am looking for and with My3 it would pass.............not losing the FAITH...

On this day, God wants you to know...

... that your unspoken prayers will be answered. Yes, God knows you, God hears you, God loves you, God is there for you. You are blessed. ......
and these are his words.
I have my answers .All I need is the patience and start working .

still waiting

I am not worried .They will call.I had built it and they will come , play and sing I am not losing FAITH....My LORD of perfect timing is doing HIS miracle in due time .I started uploading songs again finally.I just got done uploading "anytime at all"It is working now and all I need is more Beatles songs.I know ....I'll call my brother and ask if I can borrow some of his album to download in my PC.......

waiting

Yes I am waiting for that special call that will say ,...................."YOU'RE IN"and we can start doing your INSTRUOKE on a certain day .I was talking to the Manager of the that Establishment and he said he called some of his musician friends to start with and waiting for their call so we can have enough people in there that would be able to play and to have enough people who knows music to make it more interesting and would participate ...........still looking for others and trying to distribute my cards and with resume now for work of any kind .Need to find a money making scheme or WORK.I have an advert for my apartment too now for rent now that my niece is moving out which is next month..............I am now working again on more Beatles music now that I have it working.I started with ,.... Anytime at all....................

I am back !!!

I think I finally got this thing going and will be able to get back to doing my project.The Beatles INSTRUOKE sing & play along guitar tutorial series.It has been a while and I did not know what to do ...I approached one of the establishment downtown and shown my project and he seems to be interested and was asking questions.Hoping he will give me a spot in his place .I have to find myself something to do and make a few $$ to start with or I will end up playing in the pier if I need to.....FAITH.....I have lots of that ....I need lots and lots of guidance and I believe this was put in my heart and need to work on it .I want to make sure my daughter will be protected when freedom comes back. My3 is behind me a million % and just waiting for me to make my move.....

raining

Woke up raining and it should be all day.The way I see it,.... I'll go see my daughter anyway if I am given a chance.I am hoping my brother will come get or even just pick me up so I can use his ride....this is so hard ,....the asking the favor part....Let's get back to music entertainment .....I can't even get the program now ,something is still wrong with this PC....it won't upload anything and and the media player is not playing properly or not playing most of the audio I have....I have all this songs lined up and can't do it ...........not yet anyway....I'll fix it.

door to door

I finally made it out today but I think I got my self out to late ,it's after lunch almost when I got downtown because of course I was walking.Called one of my friends to hang out with me for a while at the pier to catch some ray anyway.I was able to make an appointment for a demo.I am happy I got myself an appointment to show my creation.We'll see what happen first.I was running around downtown carrying my laptop that no one sees. I get to see the Manager of the Roadhouse Cafe at 2pm on Friday the 4th.I'll be happy just to be able to show the project.

LOST.

Been gone for a long time.My plate is so full it is overwhelming.Funding is low and everything is not in the same page.Anyway it is a another day and will start over again.Been incapacitated for more than a month because of pc trouble.My goal NOW is to put together a music entertainment.I am ready. I can do this .Have to do it .I have to show my gifts and share specially the music gadget.+ the fact that you can play a little.I feel like I have been making all this excuses .I had stop uploading and making the instruoke songs ,lost music program ,...actually; still is.I need to ....AGAIN!
to introduce this music entertainment + I am targeting making all the $ I can to provide for others specially me & my loved ones.I am waiting for guidance always and that's is all I know.I have to get this going and start taking control of my so called LIFE.I need a kick in the freaking ass. I am so m@#$%^&*()_broke and I am not doing anything about it...don't have a ride either .Not complaining ... just telling a story... EVERYTHING WILL BE OK ! One thing I learned is ........THIS TOO SHALL PASS. I am glad I am able to do that now and not have a panic attack.GOD is so GOOD.I can even heal my self now a days .....very Grateful and Thankful......It's time to collect my inheritance. NOW this is how it will go ....I am looking to introduce this music entertainment and I can use your assistance,... I am at the end of my rope I can use use the help and in return we can be rewarded very handsomely SHOW ! Flaunt what you have and share your gift.Even if it is not the actual gift but the creativity that came with it......The Gift.

getting back

I have been trying to get back on my blog but time won't let me .So many thing s things I have to do.I have two of my nieces and their children staying with me and not only that I have one of the boyfriend too that not really doing anything for me ..BUT ....I am glad I was provided with such strength that I am now able to just turn around and shake my head and just managed to understand how it is ......................I am just doing this for my niece and my grand niece Analia and hoping things will get better for them.I wish I have money and they will be alright.

working on it

I had the nerve this morning and courage.I was guided and it took me downtown and just hanged and walked around and talk to bars (some) about music entertainment,see if I can get a phone call from them for demo.I am ready. I can taste this .With The Most High assistance I will get it.......and show and share with all what I was working on the whole time I was recuperating.I should really talk to the Manager of N.L..I checked on the prices for sound system and it is actually not that bad For $25 hundred I can get up to 4 mic and 4 instruments hook up + the whole 9 yards .Outdoor system.I have 2 guitars already and a so-so keyboard .Works for me .I am so grateful for all these graces ......I managed to open another blog ,..myguitarspace.com and posted Please,please me by The Beatles to start...I am leaning towards this Beatles instruoke project.My youtube channel is doing OK.It's just there .I least I have it there always.I'm glad I was able to post in there or else .I lost it all again in the last crashed .I just got this PC functioning properly now and still not doing great and still missing programs.

it's going.

Finally I have it going .The program is back,but my music is all gone too.This has been going on for the longest time .I gain something then something be gone too.It is a disaster .I am glad I have the unlock code worked ,it took me a while but it's back.I just have to upload more music .More Beatles ,every single track I have are gone even the original ones and classic rock I am so glad I was able to save it in youtube really or else I will start all over again.This will be the 3rd time I lost all these datas...I guess I have to just record more and make some more Beatles so far I have at least 16 and if I am going to create a INSTRUOKE Beatles collection to compete with the Beatles rock band.I should start making more HUH ?I think I just lost all my Beatles pictures too....

Finally

I been out for a long time ,really don't know what to do ,,,,,my pc is down and can't do jack about it.I think it is now in good working condition but there's more missing program ,...I still don't have the windows media player and can't make anymore Instruoke for a while till I straighten it out .Somehow I know what it is I need to do to start this project of mine and I wll need enough courage to do this but I know I will get all the assistance I need from HIM.I have to share all this to all that they may know or else I will be wondering what would have happened.I am sticking with The Beatles INSTRUOKE.

lost music

So many things going in this PC of mine ,now my WMPlayer is out and saying not supported bywindows and I don't really know hot to fix this.My youtube is working but i cannot add up any songs in my collection and can not continue with my project.I hope it is just temporary .I have not been working on this for a while now .It seems like I am stranded and have no where to go.I know I have a few songs and would like to do more ....my computers has been doing all this starnge new things to me....

Hello............

Finally ! I got my PC fixed .It crashed on me about 10 days ago and had a hard time looking for someone that may be able to fix for me .It will cost $350.to get it going .It needs new hard drive and bigger memory.This PC was design to just read and NO downloading any kind of data.I did not know; Me and my niece were downloading all kind of things ,I had my music and she has all this books in the hard drive and even her son Ricky got into the action by loading all kind of games.I have to be careful using it make sure I download and erase what I did after.I am so glad that I was able to transfer it and opened and account with youtube or else it would have been gone too for the 4th time....I just have to star all over again because I lost the program and I have to buy it again.I have really nothing to worry about now.

hold

I have no choice but to hold my project for a while.I have no way of fixing this for now .I guess the pC I have is only design for office work and not for downloading anything but ....I just have to put my project on hold for a while.I don't have the funding to get it fixed.I need to upgrade and add up memory and extend the hard drive it's to little for what I am doing + the fact I have others using it and downloading all kinds of things .Geez ! I have not even playing really but an occasional song every now and then........I am still in the same boat but much better I see my daughter everytime I have a chance and if the funding allows....Everything will be OK and I know it .Right now I just have to do what I can to make everything work.I am glad I still can use this laptop even though it has a minor virus ,.it's moving and I'll be OK....Lizzie told me it is just around the corner and it's coming ....I Believe !

crashed.

Now I am really won't be able to log on any time I feel like writing something down about this BLOG,.....My PC is down and not going anywhere.This is what I get for having everyone use my computer ,every is OK to use it ,When it break I am the only one who gets a problem .I don't even know what to do right now but;I said my piece and will say more if I need to.....This boy has big balls and actually don't want him around but can't do that.Have to find a way to get it fix .This is the second computer I crashed already the last two months.I have all my music work and the music program in that computer..I even have pending work that is waiting for me to get done but !
somebody has always have to screw it for me.I am glad I have enough in my youtube channel .Hoping I will be able to use them soon enough.

a while....

Been busy working on this things and preparing for her to have her own room to make sure she will be in a better environment tha her Mother's house so......We will be OK,....I just have to make sure she don't repeat history.I am sure it will if I allow her to stay with her MOM ...I think I am not being critical If I say I can't trust her to stay with her Mom because then it will happen again.As long as she does the things she is suppose to do ,..then we will be OK .Finish School .That is what I am hoping to happen and with the help of The Blessed TRINITY.I should not worry at all.....But knowing me I will anyway....I just have to do the best I can ....I have two more songs hanging and I can't even do that ........yet............I will....

absense...

Wow,it has been five days that I've been gone and have not realized it...I was to busy getting things together for my daughter who is now in Boston,things that she can use and preparing for the outside life she has been coop up inside and I have to provide for her some new things that she can use and need .I have not even touch or play my guitar.Although I was able to fix my nephew in-law's guitar...I was not really interested in fixing it but I was told that it would belong to my grand nephews in the future so I want nothing better for these children and would like to be able to teach them how to play specially.....It needs a new saddle string bridge .It was split in half and it needs a place to put the bone in.It will cost $120.00 for the new saddle and it need to be lifted with heat and replace which they have to do themselves and it will cost $30.00 for that So ! I decided to look around for alternative or spend the money which they won't come up with because it is expensive and almost the price of a new guitar.I like to help so I found my self a piece of wood and started cutting and shaping till I got the right shape .I went to arts and craft store and found myself the right color paint for $1.99 + and started blending and gluing and TARAN,It's fixed and stringed and played it and it sounded good.....DANG I'm good he,he,...I am so proud of my self that I am able to do this kind of grace that I am provided....I have been working today too with a couple of Beatles songs ,...Ask me why and please,please me....of course it is incomplete still but......I was multi-tasking all over.I even managed look for houses and even sent $$ for my nephews.....and cook pancit at the same time after.....

Two blogs

Now I am running two blogs at the same time ,I have to stop one of them .I was running four at the same time at one time.The Gift and My thoughts about my music .I stopped those and proceeded to the Instruoke blog,But I have two now and keep messing up.I am going to try to maintain the same blog and stick with it .Work on my Beatles project Instruoke and see what I can record and work on.

The other blog

I just realized that I am running two blogs at the same time.I have the chito-instruoke and INSTRUOKE BLOG with both Beatles posting .

looking for work

I have decided its time to really,really look for regular work and in the meantime look for my music sponsor .i have time ...My favor will far and beyond ...It's just not the right time yet.It's always raining or snowing or below zero always and actually they call it WINTER.I tell you ,...this weather we are having is wack,.....Mudslide,Freezing in Florida,,snowing in Nevada,earthquake in Haiti ,Tornado ...........There is only 3 or 4 more establishment existing downtown New London ..I just have to be patient and work as much as I can in this INSTRUOKE music project .....Gather as much song as I can ...I know exactly what to dowith the music now and take it my computer CD.....It works I'm working and waiting for my blessings the proper way HUH ?I'll get there.............Patience my dear Patience.................

lost blog

I know I was absent for a while haven't been around but I am still going through with my channel and looking for more songs I can do.....I have "For no one" lined up but have not done it yet.I guess they call it laziness and wondering what it is I need to do with myself.I just have to figure out the things I need to do .I have plenty in my plate and I really don't know what it is I need to do with it....I am in denial and waiting for a miracle to happen......I have all this Beatles pics and I am being lazy ....I figured I have more than I can use .....I did say I was going to do as much as I can and post it in the channel....

another lovely day

I am still humming the same song for three days now trying to get the perfect guitar chords for it .Well,....I had posted it in my facebook pages anyway.I didn't care even if it does the wrong chords ,They 'll figure it out ....actually I do and I care...I just have to re-post it ...because I took it off after a few days .I don't know but i don't understand this family of mine sometimes .I don't get any kind of feedback at all except one or two from my friends but never my family ...BUT ! I understand and that all it is to it ,.....I think they kind'a embarrassed of me and what I am doing so ,.......... but again, hey !!!I am going back to my Beatles Instruoke and work on this last one I have been working on"I've just seen a face"

lovely day

Oh well,...I have to make a detour a little.It was my nephew Raymond's birthday yesterday and with all the greetings he got,he came back with this song that I always like but never knew the title to it.Lovely day and he posted the song in facebook so I was practically singing it all day.I managed to find the lyrics and looked for the guitar chords .Here I am still singing the same song and I want to be able to make it to INSTRUOKE and post it in my youtube channel.It was by Bill Withers a wonderful sounding happy song....It could be a praise song too.I could wake up in the morning and the sunlight hurt my eyes...he,he,he...

Anytime at all

If you need somebody to love,just look into my eyes...Yes I am working on tha and the next one I have to come with the chords for intro is this song....Ive' just seen a face.I am running out of things to do ,here I am blogging but nothing better to say.I have all this things.I have in mind but I don't how to get it going or where to start.I need a work so I can make money. I have this music project I have been working on and hoping someone will discover it and take out of my hands?I just have to do this on my own satisfaction and call it my own INSTRUOKE project that nobody has but ME.

what goes on

I'll just keep writing all these songs till I run out the songs I know .i'll just put the ones I know how to play and stop there .So,......I'll be here blogging for a while .Once I run out of the Beatles songs I know I will proceed back to the classic rock and all the songs I can play and we'll see how much I have and know.I am running outof option and really don't what's the next thing I need to do....I just did " what' goes on "I just finished and I was going to the song" got to get you into my life "but,.......I don't have the track My Beatles collection is so limited that I am running out of songs to do.I guess I have a few more that I can do.I just can't be picky and just do what I need to do get this
BEATLES INSTRUOKE SONG BOOK +++ going ......

Finally

YEY ,...it took me a couple of days and it's not really perfect and has a slight glitz but I am fine with and don't care about it.As long as I can understand it my self and I am happy ,.... I am good.I am not pro and I am glad I can do this,....there I said it. All I need is for it to get out there . I have "Get back + You like me too much .I'll just keep working on it till I get my self a job .Hoping soon ,'cause this having no funding is not really working with my good looks?found my self some Beatles pictures and will start using the new ones...

Get back

I am still working on my "Get back" song.....I am not a perfectionist but I can't get it right...I have to have it right,at least have it synchronized right and moving right....I just have to make as much Beatles songs in my youtube channel to make it look good and looking like it is a regular song book.I put the rest of my classic rock and roll away and put away in CD's .It's killing my Computer with all the songs I have in there .Multiple songs that is just sitting there.I have to put the rest of my Beatles songs too once I have enough.What i'll do is put 6 songs per CD so I have my computer clean always and doesn't have all this file sitting around.I really don't know what it is I'm doing when it comes to this setting up my youtube channel or having this blog set up except sometime I'll get lucky and get it right .I was able to connect my blog now to all the songs and that makes me happy,......he,he.....

All my loving

I was working all day yesterday,I was able to do "all my loving and "honey don't" but it took me the whole afternoon to the 2 songs. Specially the honey don't part ...I was patient and took my time till I got it right ?.I have it now in a flash drive .... all Beatles and couple of M5 's" Sunday morning" and "this love " That should be enough and be named Beatles Instruoke collection + huh ? I have about 14 songs in the drive including M5's so that 's enough to show to sing & play .It is all favorite and known Beatles songs ...I'll be making more .I have one brewing now ....Get back,... this one specially challenging .I worked on it the rest of the night. I am going back and forth and still unhappy with my work so I just left it alone and work on it in my better days .It is very frustrating trying to do the synchronization and every time I do it ,....it's wrong or I am playing catch up. So I gave it up for a while and will come back to it ,........sometime ?? I don't work on Sundays,....it is Sabbath day...........

This boy

Yes ,...I am still at it and going strong I. managed to upload "this boy" and "and I love her" This time with out any complication ....it is getting easier now ... I can see clearly now and I am making this a little better than I used to..I do need a new camera or new camcorder to have a better and clearer video for this project .I have a few feedback from my work too.....One of my niece even said it was good and liked it ...That makes me happy.See !,....that's all I need to get me going .I have about 10 Beatles songs now ...I need about a couple more to start my Beatles Instruoke marathon ????I will probably end up with more and pick the favorite ones.My Beatles song collection are very limited and I can't really pick my favorite ones to sing ?

SEVEN

My favorite number 7....Yes today is the seventh of JANUARY........I managed to find more Beatles songs and downloaded it into my computer right and started working on my Beatles Instruoke project right.I did my favorite Beatles song "Till there was you" and
"Here there and everywhere"I am getting good at this things.I have 9 songs so far ....I have to re-dp some of them but that is not a problem...I really don't care and I have this inside info to post it anyway and I will .......I am trying to upload one song now in youtube and if it goes through I will post it in my fb page and share it to alland give info on how to use it ....I was checking youtube too and if they can post Beatles song in karaoke form and other films .Maybe I can too.We'll see......

The Beatles INSTRUOKE

YEY !....... imagine that.It was so cold outside .I went out to mail my daughters package and some magazines for her to read for her trip and and I went straight home.I'd rather stay home than be out ...too cold .I started working on my music and decided to start with IF I FELL .It took me a couple of hours to complete the first song but,...I enjoyed making it.I have not done any song with the original sound track for a while .It's much easier than me making and trying to sing and record and take of video of my beautiful self and typing the song ans synchronizing it after and re-taking video of it ...it's a lot of work but ! I Finished it and proceeded to another one and then another one ....WOW !!! I finished three songs in one day ....That is a new record for me.Nowhere Man and then WAIT .I now have six songs .my target is to have at least a dozen but the songs I have in my list is now incomplete .I don't have the rest of the songs I listed.I have to get by with what I have or buy the rest of the CDs.I have the complete but only plays and can not record or copy....I'll keep searching and maybe I'll find a way and get it from a different site....

1st monday 2010

Geez ! I just lost my post .I was writing about how I was working on my Beatles songs and how I have 3 songs with original track and I don't know if I can post it with out getting in trouble.I have 13 selections including my 3 own compositions now in you tube.I will keep working on it anyway.While I am doing ;that I am working on my daughters affair and planning of getting for her to be the best of what she can be ,.....to be on top of the WORLD.ME ?I will have the financial freedom I am looking for and I will be on top .HE did it for them,... HE will do it for me.I am getting my breakthrough.....

1st monday 2010

Survived 2009 ,have to make things better and do all right,...I am waiting for my daughters freedom.In the meantime I have to find $ making scheme.I am going places and my daughter will be somewhere high up and doing the work of The Most High.He did it all for them HE will do it for me.....I have 13 songs now including my own,........but not including my 3 Beatles songs with original track.I am still working on it.i am afraid to post it .I have to ask someone first.

1st sunday

And it is still snowing,has not stop yet.I managed to upload my very first praise song Trust,Believe.It happened during my darkest hour and having anxiety attack and at the time. I had to get therapy for the next year...and this tune was in my head and learning more about my Creator.This is the time I said Wow ! I am now a composer of a very good song .HE,HE,HE...Today will be the day that turn things around.One of my FB friend help me change it all around which made it understandable better....The melody is all mine .I just have to wait and see.I have learned a lot yesterday about what I am doing .I have to change a lot of things in all my ways and not do mistakes and wrongs.I did not know that I am dragging my self down and I was being LAZY for the last decade almost....What a waste of time.I have to find myself work and support my self and provide for others.I have been hoping I will get this project out in the open and make $$ out of what I am doing.First was my gift and then my music project..It is now almost four years and have not made a single dime...I probably spent more than ten thousand dollars on both of these project not including the trips and lawyers and expenses and nothing to show but !!!!!I guess I just to go back to work.What kind of work do I get now with a very limited education I have.My cooking can only get me prep cook and that is it,........ unless I get my own restaurant which is a ??? I can use all the break I can get .I am not even ready to go back to work because I need more surgery in my face .One last surgery and it should be done.Guaranteed or not for me to get better....I am done.Right now I need to be able to get a job for I have to make sure Maria has a place to stay and I will be able to send her to school and provide for her.I owe her that much .My priorities ???? my daughter and to make sure I get this music project out and see how it will work.....And they will like it.
By the way ,...that is me being cool with my new coxx les paul

SNOW

Let it snow ,let it snow,let it snow,....has been snowing since New Years eve,...has not let up...Tired !,...not of the snow but just digging up my car .First one was almost 2 feet and the rest are all up to six inches at least.It is snowing hard now.My automobile needs a set of new rubbers and I can't risk driving around with what I have now.I don't of anything right now but my sanity and my GUIDE .I am never alone ,it just I have been staying home so much because of lack of funding and would soon change. Hoping to change that real soon and looking forward to seeing my daughter very soon.Hoping she'll call me today too to at least greet me a Happy New Years so I can talk to her and ease my mind knowing she is safe.Everything will be good.What I can do is just play guitar and try to compose a new song or just work on my Beatles music project.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

First day of 2010.....I am back to the same exact thing I am doing yesterday ....No difference ,just like another day like yesterday only they call it a ............new year ? .Same thing !What I have to do is concentrate to get a new something that I can make $ with and change this cycle I am in and change the future of my children and my self ...I am working more on this project of mine .I am hoping I'll get this out in the open and hang out more.NOW ! My new piano /keyboard is now dying on me,,,,,again!This is what I get for trying to save $ and buying things from these places like the pawnshop.....I was able to use it for a couples of months and
died.I was so happy because it was tutorial and very in-expensive and looks good.But....Now ,I a have to buy a new one .I was getting good at it.I managed to learn the exercises and few chords and a few songs even singing my own compositions...